How I Hate My Job

Currently, I am working at Silver Lake Golf Course, in what is called the Grill Room. I only work here one day a week, but it is the worst day of the week. This job requires me to be there by 6 in the morning. So this means that I have to be awake by 5. As a teenager, it is very hard for me to do. I feel as if my Saturday nights are ruined because i dont like to be out late because of the time that i have to be awake. If i am up too late the night before work, I feel sick in the morning. At Silver Lake it is very hectic and the pay is not very good. I have come to hate golfers. Most of these men are incredibly impatient and extremley nasty. Sometimes when there is quite a few people waiting to be helped it can become very hectic. This is when the men become extremley nasty. For example, i could be ringing up a customer, and another man with come to where the cash register is and start telling me his order. Not with a "can i have either". It an "i want, or ill have" This bugs me because they see how busy i am. I like the people that i work with though, they are all very nice. But the golfers and the hours are terrible, so i am currently going to look for a new job because i cannot stand working there anymore. Before this job, i used to work at Staten Island Paintball. As a teenager, its the job of your dreams. At the age of 17, i was classified as Assitant Manager, making $10 an hour off the books. This place was more than a job. It was one of my favorite places to be. Everyone that worked there had an amazing bond. It was like one giant family. We all enjoyed what we did, and even on my days off, i was still there. Starting the job not knowing anything about the sport, i soon came to love it, started playing it, and even got my own paintball gun. I quit after new owners took over the place because i would no longer be assistant manager and only be paid minimum wage. None of the other workers were going to work there any more either, so i didnt think it would be worth working there. I miss that job sooo much, I wish i never quit and i hope that soon i can quit Silver Lake.

Six Flags

This past saturday was my first time going to six flags. Looking at the weather forcast for that day and seeing rain, made my friends and I a little hesistant about going. But, we went. In the rain and I am so glad we did. The rain wasnt terrible, it was just slightly raining, sometimes needing an umbrella. At the park, the lines for all the rides were extremley short. All morning the most we had to wait were 15 minutes. This is very unusal, epecially for this time of year, but the rain kept many people away that morning. It was great because i was able to go one every rollercoaster at the park except for one which i chose not to go on. A few rollercoasters i was even able to go on twice. Im glad we went becuase since it was my first time i was able to try out all of the rollercoasters. By 2 in the afternoon when the rain stopped the lines began to grow longer, but i didnt mind at that point because i had gone on all of the rides already. At night, it became fright fest. It was so much fun because it really felt as if it were Halloween. That day we were in the park for 11 hours. Im am so glad that the rain did not stop my friends and I from going because not at all did the rain ruin our time there.

A Weekend of Laughs

Last weekend was the first weekend that i felt somewhat happy. It was as if all the stress I had was still there, but i was able to avoid it a little bit and be able to have a good time. That weekend mostly consisted of just hanging out with friends that make me laugh and always make sure I am having a good time. One friend in particular made me laugh the entire time. It was a great feeling to be able to laugh for the first time in weeks. I am trying to do this every weekend. Have set plans so that during the week, i have something to look foward to. This way, atleast on the weekends i am able to not think about my problems for just a few hours a day.

Hairspray

Last week i went to the city and saw the musical Hairspray. Over the summer when the movie of it came out and went and saw it. I fell in love with the movie and the music. The play was a little different from the movie but it was still excellent. One of my childhood crushes Ashley Parker Angel, a singer from the old band Otown, was in it. He was one of the main characters and also did an excellent job. I would definitatley go and see that musical again. The music is just amazing. If i did go again though, i would definatley get better seats to so i can see the stage a little easier.

An Enjoyable Day At Casola Farms

During the fall season at Casola Farms you are able to go pumpkin picking, go on a hay ride, travel through a corn maze, etc. A few weekends ago, my friend, my cousin and I went to Casola Farms. After using Mapquest to get there, I realized that I will never use it again. This is because after getting us off of the Garden State Parkway, there were no more directions. It was pretty much as if Mapquest was telling us here we got you this far, now find your way. After making numerous U-turns, and traveling down different roads, my 13 year old cousin finally decided to get out and ask someone for directions. We then finally arrive there. I found this funny that the youngest one in the car, got us to where we wanted to go. Being at Casola reminded me of my childhood memories. I havent gone pumpkin picking since i was little and stil at this age, i enjoyed it greatly.

A Mental Blockage

Stress. It can do many things to you. As you can see I have slacked in writing blogs. It has become one of my many problems. Because of all of this stress, i have slacked in school work. I can not think of anything else but all of this stress. It is like i have a mental blockage. When i try to sit and do school work, it is just physically imposible. Even going to class has become difficult to me because it is hard to sit there for so long. It is like i have become a child. I did not want my first semester of my first year of college to be like this. I wish I was able to start over, try to avoid all of this stress. I am trying so hard to over come all of this, to go back to the real me. And to be able to do well in school again, just like before.

Memoirs

A memoir is a memory that is written down about someone's personal life.
Usually I reflect on the nature of memory when I look back at my live journal. This was a place where you could write about your daily events or feelings on a website. For a year I haven't written on this live journal. Sometimes when I have nothing to do, I go back on my live journal and read about all of the things that I experienced in the past. When I am down I especially go on this page because thinking about some of these memories make me laugh. I am happy that I have these to look back on so I will never forget some great times that I have had.

Why Me?

Have you ever felt like that whatever you do, everything just goes wrong? That's me! Here I am, age 17, and I have never been so stressed out in my life. Whenever I think, can it get anyworse? It does. I have come to that point in life where I don't know what to do that will make my life happier again. Being a teenager is not easy. There are always those fights with friends. You get hurt by that guy you really like. But what hurts the most, is when your friends hurt you. Even worse, they dont feel like they have done anything wrong. This alone can stress you out, but when trying to get through to them, and you simply fail is even worse. Not only do I feel like i have lost one friend but I have lost 2. Now I know you are probably wondering what happened to make me feel like this, but if i were to sit here and explain it would be 3 pages long. All I know is that I try and try to get over this, but i physically just can't. I am too hurt by the fact how much a friend hurt me. I just never thought they could ever do such a thing. I now just take it day by day. Trying to get rid of this stress, but it is a long process. Sometimes it feels like its too long to handle. But I know that someday I will finally let go of all this stress. And that is the day that I cannot wait for!